Sunday, May 10, 2015

Calm down Entropy

The elbows are firmly held against the walls. Sometimes they are stable, a few other times the friction is unbearable. I think the skin is off and the wall is in direct contact with my flesh. I try to use my forefinger and thumb to find what the wall is made of. No use. I give up. Will I be able to scratch the surface, find a hole, insert my finger and break the wall open with as minimal force as possible. No hole anywhere and not much of mobility as well. My feet is stuck and the knee is jammed between my forearm and biceps. I am not able to open my eyes. I think I am blindfolded. Let me use my hand to open the blindfolds. Or am I really blindfolded? Try. Try. Try. I am not able to move my hands. My elbows are still up against two walls. Am I entirely sitting on a plank of some sort? Am I? Am I in a stable position right now? Is my external entropy zero? Or am I increasing my entropy by asking such pointless questions?
So, in fact I am sitting in a comfortable position. Or should I say squatting? Yeah! Squatting is the word. But why am I blindfolded? No! It can’t be it. Let me summon up all the energy possible to lift my head. One. Two. Three. Can’t. I give up. I have this strange feeling in my stomach. This feeling of desiring something. Something can be anything, but I need something in my stomach to make this desire vanish. Is it hunger? I can’t pinpoint as I have forgotten how hunger feels. This feeling is strange. It will make you do things which one wouldn’t do in a normal state of mind. What is the point of this feeling? I can smell something. Oh! Is it my own sweat? I need to take a shower as soon as I get home. So salty my sweat tastes!
I let time pass.
Limbs have given up. What next? Ears. Oh my lovely ears. Hear! Hear the gossip that the mates next door are talking about. What are they cleaning? Why should they waste so much water? Good Lord! I need to talk to them right now and stop them wasting any more water. “Hey next door neighbours! Secondly, stop wasting so much water. Firstly, where are we? Help me out of here! Is anybody there? Are you guys dumb? Help me out of here, I say! Ok. I am sorry. Help me out of here, I plead. Please. This is killing me” What arrogant bastards. They don’t even acknowledge me, but keep doing their work.
Give up. Just give up. There is nothing more to this life. Plain, eternal, string of worries, one after the other. Just give up. It is simple.
I let time pass. I give up. Suddenly.
Where the hell am I? Why am I squatting? What am I doing here? Control. Your entropy is increasing. An increase in entropy is going to increase this strange feeling in stomach. But this feeling can make you do anything. Like lifting your head up. Bingo! Increase this strange feeling. Yes, head! Now listen to me. Up. Up. Up. Look up. Yes. I have done it. Phew! Now eyelids, listen to me. Open. Slowly open Sesame. Darn! What was that flash of light? I don’t want light. Shut the eyes up!
I am not blindfolded, but I am used to darkness by keeping my eyes closed. I can’t take in the light. Yes I can’t. No I can. Don’t listen to that voice which says you can’t do a thing. That you can give up and enjoy your slumber in darkness with your eyes closed. Now, listen to me. Slowly open your eyes. It will be difficult, but the juice is worth the squeeze. Come on. Do it. Open. Painful. Bang. Aaah! Stabilize. Yes eyes stabilize. Calm down entropy, you are doing fine. You are able to take in the light. It’s a clear blue sky. I am feeling a drop of sweat trickling down my chin. It’s a bright sunny day. Look around. I am inside a box. I can stand up inside the box with little extra effort. I am losing balance. Oops! Why am I sliding? Oh my Cosmos! Where am I?


In the middle of an ocean stuck inside a box!